Good morning beautiful souls 🧚♂️
I hope when given the chance to choose love or fear that you choose love.
For many years I basked in my fears. I not only lived afraid but I created chaos with all of my fears in my head. It’s not as though I had a choice because I truly didn’t know there was any other way.
I was just like you! Trying my best to break generational patters of dysfunction while creating a happy life for my family.
We are all just doing the best that we possibly can at the current time with our given circumstances.
But sometimes in life there are people like me that understand that without the darkness there can be no light.
We go through our pain so that we might share it with you and help you heal your hurts.
But if we’re unwilling to walk through the pain, then we won’t ever be able to shine our lights, because we will become lost in the darkness forever.
Choosing love isn’t easy when you’ve spent your entire life hiding from yourself. Choosing love doesn’t mean that you don’t have any boundaries and that your a door mat, but it means that your willing to explore your own part in this world.
Choosing love might mean that some things have to break completely, so they can be put back together again differently.
Choosing love means taking time to rest your weary soul, because I promise it’s not your body that’s tired.
Choosing love means knowing what love is and being able to receive it.
Love means being vulnerable when you want to run away.
Love means speaking up and telling the truth even when your afraid because your feelings do matter.
Love means fiercely protecting each other from anyone and anything that might not be in each other’s best interest.
Love doesn’t mean that your perfect or that you never mess up, but when you do make a mistake, you own it and you learn from it and you don’t repeat it.
Love might mean upsetting some people because your not doing things the way they want you to do them. But the truth of the matter is this friends, you’ve got this one life and it’s yours to do whatever you want with.
You can choose to live it afraid and on auto pilot. You can do the exact same thing that you’ve always done, or you can choose a love that extraordinary.
We are only responsible for our own happiness, and we can only change ourselves.
I’m really not here to settle for anything. I’m not down with a mediocre marriage, or fake friendships. I’m a ride or die girl! I’m all in or I’m not in at all.
It’s taken me years to undo all of the layers that surrounded my soul, and every single day I learn something new about myself.
And just when I think I’ve got it figured out I learn another important lesson about myself.
I hope that you know that after the storm there’s a beautiful rainbow. I want you to understand that I am not the same person I used to be because there’s a big ass hole in my heart that won’t ever be filled.
Losing your best friend is not a club I ever wanted to be in, but damn it I’m going to remember her by all of the good times. And I’m going to be carrying around a bucket of grief with me as well.
This is my life now, this is a part of who I am and even if I don’t like it I’m slowly but surely learning to live with it.
I’m ready to live and love and accept that my blessings are about to outweigh my burdens.
I fully understand that my next chapter is going to be the most magical chapter of my entire life, but only because……………..
I choose love
And my hope is that you choose it too.
💜 Tay Tay