Sister girlfriend I miss you so much, how do I do the 4th without you?

Pretty much every single 4th of July for as long as I can remember was spent at my best friends house.

Next week is the 4th and she’s not on earth anymore and I’m not sure what I’m going to do with myself.

I don’t know what to do without you sometimes. There’s such a big ass hole in my heart and I can’t even tell you how many times I wish I could call you.

Of course I still talk to you just like your here, but I don’t get to hear your funny advice and your laugh when it comes to the shit were talking about.

I don’t know how to do summer without you. You’ve been such a huge part of my life for so many years and I’m really struggling as it gets closer to the 4th.

I wish you were here to laugh and to cry with me. We truly embraced our outcast rolls together the last couple of years.

Between your cancer and my toothless divorce we were quite the pair. I’ll never forget the morning I called you to see if you wanted to go do something and you said “I just need to get my boobs” and I said “I just need to get my teeth” and then we both proceeded to laugh until we peed our pants.

Who would have thought we would say such things in our 40’s?!?!?!?

(I wish I would have shared that story at your funeral but I wasn’t prepared)

I miss you much my heart aches some days and other days I know your close by because I feel you.

But the pain of losing you remains the same. I will never ever be the same person because I don’t have you anymore. I’m so blessed that I got to spend so many years being your friend.

But I’m selfish and I want a million more years with you.

You know me and how I always told you there’s no such things as a coincidence, which is why God made us friends.

He knew that I would stand by you and help you fight your toughest battles, and he knew that you would do the same for me.

God makes us friends but our hearts fit together perfectly. You took care of everyone else and then I helped take care of you.

I miss laughing with you because it’s what we did best. We truly knew how to have a good time and to live in the moment.

You and I had life figured out a long time ago, which is another reason that we were so close. Material things didn’t matter to us, but the relationships in our lives meant everything.

I seriously haven’t decided if I’ll stay home and cry or I’ll go out and start a new tradition?

I don’t know how I’m going to be feeling that day, but one things for sure I’ll be missing you.

But I’m also very lucky to have all of these memories with you stored away in my heart.

I know you here even though your not. Of all the things I lost this year I miss you the most.

💔 Tay Tay

A good friend knows all your stories, a best friend helped you write them


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