I’ve been running on straight adrenaline for a few days now. The events of the last week have had me extremely emotionally drained.
It’s so much to feel and see and hear and witness. The pain that is felt by the people left behind is often times completely unbearable, yet we all continue on somehow.
It’s been a rollercoaster and while we think we can prepare ourselves for what’s coming, there’s absolutely no way in hell that we can even imagine what a broken heart feels like.
I took time today to regroup and regain my center, by taking it to the mat. Last week was a blur at times and I found myself on autopilot a lot more then I ever am normally.
I happen to think it’s a side effect of the entire process of losing such a beautiful brave soul. Today my yoga teacher explained that not only were her eyes sad, but it was as though her entire body was sad at the loss of Renee’. And I knew exactly what she was talking about as I believe it best describes grief.
It seems to enter our bodies and flow through our muscles and there’s nothing we can do about it, except for to sit with it and wait on it to subside.
I’m going to need to take special care or my heart and my energy right now because I’ve got lots more going on in my life. But one day soon I’ll be able to focus on creating a new routine.
I hope that you all truly understand how short life is. Losing my best friend has taught me just how important it is to find your happy and to live it every single day.
Stay tuned for amazing adventure and great news in my life.
💜 Tay Tay
Peace God Bless Namaste