I’m going through it today and I’m sad as all get out. There are times when I can persevere and make things better and there are times when I need to surrender.
But when I’m sad and alone and afraid, there are things that I miss having. I miss the comfort of a man and I’m not even going to pretend like I don’t.
It’s not about needing a man, if that were the case I would have already had 4 different relationships.
But there’s something absolutely amazing about a strong man holding you in his arms. I find tremendous comfort when it comes to hugging and holding someone.
Human beings need to be hugged and touched and kissed always!
Just ask my girlfriends how touchy I am! I always hug them and kiss them and touch them and smack their asses. Its a part of who I am, I’m a touchy girl and if your my friend it’s going to happen.
It’s not sexual so don’t even go there, it’s just me! Like some people hate to hug or touch I’m the complete opposite.
I’ve been single for almost a year now and I’m missing the over all feelings of having a man in my life.
The way he makes me feel safe. The way that he looks at me. The sweet kiss on the forehead and the simplicity of simply being still and doing nothing but cuddling.
But………:when I’m really really sad and alone and I need comforting, I find myself longing for these things. While at other times I don’t need them at all.
I am continually tested by the people I meet to see if I’m going to repeat history, or if I’ve learned how to show up and be myself.
It’s quite confusing and if I’m being honest I’ve never experienced so much sadness at the same time in my entire life.
I guess that means it’s time to get back out there.
I know that there’s a man out there and he’s praying for me. He will love everything about me and he won’t want me to change a single thing.
And I’m willing to wait for him because after all these years, I’ve finally found myself and I won’t ever give up.
Please please please keep me in your prayers as you will soon be informed of more. I love you and I appreciate you and I hope that you are getting a big fat hug tonight.
💜 Tay Tay