This week was the end of a freaking nightmare. A crazy ass accident, that left me toothless for exactly 7 months is finally over.
I wish I could tell you that I understood why it happened but I’m not quite there yet. But as the girl who doesn’t believe in coincidences I assure you one day I’ll be able to piece it all together.
Not having front teeth has got to be one of the most inconvenient, uncomfortable, and all together painful accidents I’ve ever had in my entire life.
If you look at this picture you can’t tell those aren’t my teeth, because dentist Neil Patel is hands down the best doctor around. (Infinite Smiles)He’s got a gift for teeth and a huge heart for his family, his staff, and his patients.
What an ordeal this was for me from the beginning until the end. I’m not ready to show you how disfigured I looked after the accident, but I will one day, in my book.
The pain was present in my eyes, and all over my face. It was mentally exhausting as well as emotionally draining.
I’ve felt every single emotion possible since this happened. I felt sorry for myself, I felt angry, and depressed, and I felt like it wasn’t fair. I felt overwhelmed and ugly. I felt alone and scared, and I felt like it was never going to end.
I felt like no one could possibly understand what I was going through. I felt defeated and I felt so much more.
But as time went on I was able to somehow adapt. I think I went into survival mode somehow knowing that I would make it through.
I was able to find some silver lining because I was twinning with this beautiful baby girl (my granddaughter).
And if I’m being really honest I found out quite a few things about myself during the healing process.
I found out I’m way tougher then I ever thought I could be. I learned that I’m resilient and that no matter how hard it gets I’ve got this.
I learned that my beauty doesn’t come from the way I look, but rather the way I love, and that the most important part of anyone is their heart.
I learned how loved I am! I was showered with presence and with love and with a go fund me account and with so much more.
It was as though people just kept showing up for me, and the lord kept providing everything that I needed.
I had to get a loan to pay for the implants, and it’s going to be a while before I pay off all of the expenses that come with emergency surgery, but I know that it will all work out.
And guess what? I’m handling it all on my own. This is my life now and I’m ok with it.
This accident could have very easily broken me completely, and at times it most certainly threatened my spirit, but in the end it made me stronger then ever. It made me tougher then I ever thought I could be and I don’t think the lessons are over yet.
I’m super excited to be creating a new normal. I couldn’t be more happy with the results and I’m ecstatic to start a new chapter.
I need to say thank you to my friends and my family because I would not have survived this without every single one of you.
Thank you to Dr. Patel and his entire staff. You guys have the biggest hearts I’ve ever seen.
From the visits to the texts to the love and so much more you will never understand that it was you who kept my light flickering during some of my darkest hours.
But I wanted to say thank you and I love you and I am blessed by you all.
Love you 💜
Peace God Bless Namaste
Stay tuned for more I’m just getting started