I love Elizabeth Gilbert and her writing. I also love her story and her ability to be real and authentic. This is one of my all time favorite quotes because I resemble it and so do all of ladies that came before me.
In fact learning to handle my own shit is the only way I know how to live my life. No one else has ever handled my shit. No one is coming to bail me out.
No ones going to save me. Not a man, not my parents and not my grandparents, not my friends, and I’m perfectly ok with this.
How do you think I got so resilient?
How you think I got so strong?
It wasn’t because things were easy, and it wasn’t because I never made any mistakes.
In fact I makes mistakes about every single day of my life because I’m a human girl with a huge heart and a shit ton of feelings that I won’t ever apologize for.
To all the women in the middle of a mess right now I want you to know that your not alone. I’m in the middle of the mess with you.
I know that there are times when you just want to fast forward, and skip ahead a few months. I understand it completely because having an accident that knocked my front teeth out has been one of the longest and most draining injuries of my entire life.
I want so badly to be normal again. I want to be able to eat out whenever I want. I want to snack and drink and laugh and just be my old self again.
I want my mouth back and my smile back, And I want to not talk funny. But there’s nothing I can do to fast forward to May. There’s no way around the fracture needing to heal and the new bones that need to form around the implants.
There’s absolutely not a single thing I can do to make it heal faster.
Instead……
I’m stuck in the muck because going right through the middle of the storm is the only way I’m going to survive it.
Iyanla Vanzant refers to the mess as the meantime. It’s not a place where we will live forever, but it is a place where we must all visit, until our healing can occur.
Today is international Day Of The woman and I wanted to write to you from my mess because it’s where I live right now.
I wish I wasn’t going through half of the stuff I’m going through, but at the same freaking time I welcome the entire shit storm because I know right after all Of this ends I’m going to blessed with a life better then anything I could’ve ever imagined.
I also know that in the middle of healing my mouth and my heart I’m also learning to love myself wholeheartedly.
Listen to me beautiful ladies, girls and women I want you know that you are blossoming right where you’ve been planted.
Don’t listen to the voices in your head because that’s where the devil loves to do all of his work. Instead learn to keep an open heart even when it’s been broken.
Don’t you dare allow the worlds inability to love unconditionally make you bitter or angry. For if you truly want to feel good then you must be willing to feel bad.
Don’t ever allow the pain of this world to make you hard. That’s not why you were created. Don’t become the victim of yourself. Learn to let go and to accept that this too shall pass no matter how shallow you think that sounds.
Don’t stop wearing your heart on your sleeve. Don’t you dare make yourself small to make someone else feel big.
You are a badass
You are the father of the one true king
You are simply in the meantime
And this part won’t last forever.
When your willing to fall because you’ve learned how to rise there’s nothing that can ever stop you.
I know the middles messy but if you look hard enough you’ll be able to still find a little magic
I love you Beautiful souls