Walking away is hard, staying is hard, and not feeling loved is even harder.
So many people think they understand what’s going on in my life and they haven’t the slightest clue.
Just because you think something doesn’t mean it’s true. You will never know the entire truth until you read my books.
There’s a huge difference between being “nice” and being able to love. A wife needs nice for sure, but she also needs love like no other.
I’m a woman with many desires and needs that were left unfulfilled. I didn’t always want to vulnerable or to be authentic. I spent many years of my life hiding from myself until the lord decided it was time to get busy on the walls around my heart.
So many time we weren’t taught what love is really supposed to look like. How many people stay in marriages that have no emotional connection?
There’s no sex, not intimacy, no touching what so ever, no healthy communication, no changing and growing closer, instead often times they are just living side by side in a sort of an arrangement.
If you want that life then more power to you, I most certainly do not. There’s nothing better in the entire world then knowing that your partner has your back.
There’s nothing more amazing then looking in someone’s eyes and seeing their soul.
I love being touched, and hugged and held tightly in the arms of someone who’s keeping me safe. I love being kissed on the forehead and smacked on the ass. I love being silly and serious at the same time. I love surprises and romantic dinners and I love sex.
I love being honored and defended and put first. I love the feeling of growing with someone on an emotional level and learning how to become the people God made us to be.
Even in the midst of my storm I can tell you that I’m stronger because I learned what love is supposed to feel like, and I also learned exactly what’s unacceptable for my life.
Should you ever find yourself fighting for love I would suggest you learn to get up from the table. It’s going to hurt and it’s going to be the hardest thing you’ve ever done, but if you know that you deserve better then don’t let the door hit ya in the ass.
You will be reprimanded, ridiculed, misunderstood and broke before it’s all over, but eventually you will be free to love again.
If he really loves you he will do what it takes to keep you, and if your not that important then he won’t. It’s sooooo simple but we’re afraid of the truth.
God has big plans for those who listen to him. He will provide for your every need even when it feels like you might be drowning.
He understands what you’ve gone through because he’s been there beside you every step of the way. He knows that you’ve been cut off financially and emotionally. He sees that you are being punished for walking away and even though it seems like it might never end, he will eventually right all the wrongs that have been bestowed upon you.
You just have to keep focusing on the love and the light. Don’t bother yourself with the small minds and the opinions of those who think they know. Don’t let the fears of the future overwhelm you.
You are strong because you understand what love is and what it isn’t. You did everything you could possibly do to make things better before you walked away and for that you should be proud.
Love is a verb 💜 and you should have never have to fight for it. Wives are special and they should always receive a side of their men that no one else ever sees. That’s why God made marriage, so we can grow together.
If love isn’t being served at your table get up!
💜 Tay Tay
I go to the dentist tomorrow
Please pray that I’m ready to begin the process 🙏
Peace God Bless Namaste
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