This morning I woke up in tears
I wanted to push them away and make them
But I know that doesn’t work
Today my heart hurts and my soul weeps for what I’m going through
Today I will wrap my arms around myself and hold on tight knowing that tomorrow is a new day
And I can’t feel happy without the sad
Have you ever woke up sad? Like crying
Sad? It’s a crazy thing, because as the tears are streaming down my face, my brains like what’s wrong with you?
You just woke up!?!?
Your well rested!!!
You have a million things to be thankful
(That’s the brain for you always reasoning
Away the feelings with logic)
I promptly told my brain to shut up. My heart was calling the shots today and if she wants to be sad then I’m here to support that.
If I don’t honor the sadness and work through where I am today then that sadness will never go away, it will just linger in my heart eventually turning to anger and resentment and I don’t want to be full of either one of those things.
I don’t want this divorce and my accident to change who I am. I don’t want to become
Someone I’m not just to avoid any pain.
And I don’t want to deny my feelings when I’ve worked so hard to embrace the mess. Tears are the words that our hearts can’t put into words, and today I’m going to let mine out.
Until you go through what I’m going
Through you’ll never be able to understand what it’s like. Every single day I try to show up and to be real. I’m loving my daughter and providing for all of here needs emotionally and physically. I continue running 2 businesses and writing a blog and writing my book and try to find some time to feed my soul in the middle of the mess.
I tell you that I’m human just like the rest
Of you and I show you my struggles just like
I show you my victories. I refuse to become angry and bitter from any of this, no matter how bad it hurts.
I will love harder and I will use my
Words to fill in the blanks. Today’s one of those days where I feel sad and it’s ok.
Love is always the answer and today I need to spend sometime loving myself.
If you ever wake up in tears I want you to know that your not alone and that it’s ok.
💜 Tay Tay
Thank you so very much for reading my blog and supporting my dreams I’m finally writing in my book again
Peace God Bless Namaste