Hi I’m Tay Tay! I’m an Ohio Hairstylist and blogging life coach who happened to have an awful accident 6 weeks ago.
I’m also right in the middle of leaving my marriage, writing a book, and creating a whole new life all by myself.
I’ve learned a shit ton about myself and about those that I love this year, but this toothless one by far surpasses any of the lessons I’ve learned so far.
Today as I write to you I can joke with you about
Going from homeless to hot in 0.2 seconds but a few weeks ago, I might have knocked your teeth out if you tried to make that joke to me.
I’m serious I wasn’t joking a few weeks ago, and I wanted to hurt those who joked with me.
But that’s the process of healing and that’s exactly what they mean when they say time heals all wounds. Yes my septum is healing but so is my heart and my spirit.
I could easily be overwhelmed with concern about how I’m going to pay for my lawyer and pay for my implants, at the same time.
I mean I’ve always wanted implants, but for some reason I never dreamt of the ones in my mouth.
I always wanted some boobs, but it turns out I’m getting some teeth instead. It’s funny how our plans are never as good as the plans that God has for us.
It’s been a long ass process and while I’ve got a temporary smile, it’s not for eating or for drinking or for making out.
Ha ha ha ha I haven’t tried that last one yet but The idea behind it makes me laugh a lot, and I’m so very happy to have my sense of humor returning.
There are days when I hate that this happened to me and I want to curl up in the fetal position and cry the entire day.
But there are other days when I just have to laugh because it’s pretty crazy that it happened in the first place.
It’s absurd to me that in the middle of the biggest changes of my entire life that I have to deal with this drama too, but nonetheless I’ve got this.
I am not your normal girl and I don’t half ass anything so this part of my life is no exception.
The fire in my heart and the sassy in my soul by far outweigh anything that this world can throw at me. I wasn’t made to fit in and I embrace this part of myself wholeheartedly.
There are times when you will feel like nothing else can possibly go wrong, and Then something like this happens.
And you’ll want to run away and you’ll want to hide from the world. You will find yourself right in the middle of the messiest shit storm of your entire life, and somehow you’ll keep going.
The most amazing things grow when your in the middle of the storm, and that thing is you.
Even when you feel like the victim, you will still be able to find amazing blessings if you can train your mind to find the good, during the bad.
I know my life would be easier if I still had my teeth. I wouldn’t have to worry about half the shit I have to worry about now, but I also wouldn’t be who I am right now.
Yes it sucks but I can’t change it and I can’t cry about it every day and I can’t run and hide for the next 6 months.
So I find myself finally embracing it.
I’ve been able to find myself again and I like this girl better then the one before her. I’ve had more real conversations since this happened then I have in the last 6 months combined.
I’ve learned how to be real and to be me and to try to speak my truth and to love myself and those around me.
I’ve even learned how to laugh at myself and to invite new people into my life. Because even though the timings awful the story I’m writing in the middle of the mess is my favorite story yet.
The next time you find yourself wanting to runaway, or to quit, or to beat yourself up, remember that it could always be worse.
💜 Tay Tay
A toothless wonder who’s able to love even in the midst of adversity and uncertainty
Because love heals everything