We want someone to hold our hands but we don’t want………

We want someone to hold our hands but we don’t want to put the power to hurt us in their hands.

We want we want we want but what are we willing to give?

The world is full of broken people who are afraid. People don’t love themselves enough to commit to love because it’s so much easier to remain the same.

People want a best friend and a great relationship, but they are unwilling to look at what they are doing to keep themselves safe.

Human beings spend so much time focused on avoiding love that they aren’t even aware of the fact that it’s their own fears and insecurities that will keep them lonely and small for the rest of their lives.

They look at their phones and they compare themselves to others because it’s one of the best ways to avoid any kind of real feelings and to avoid ever getting hurt.

People tend to blame others for their own short comings and when they finally try again they take 1 step forward and then get so afraid that they take take 3 steps back.

We don’t want to do the work that it takes to learn about our own hearts. We do everything we can to avoid real because it’s easier to play games.

True connection will never come from those who avoid real intimacy. With Facebook and Pinterest and twitter and tinder and what ever else there is, we can always hide behind the pictures and the stories. We can trick ourselves into believing that those are real relationships but it couldn’t be further from the truth.

People who hide behind their phones will always hide because hiding is easy and instant gratification is safe. But it’s not real.

We can’t change our lives and love wholeheartedly if we’re always hiding from ourselves by holding onto our phones.

Most people feel more in control when they can just communicate from their phones and hide behind their screens, but this will never bring about real love.

It will bring you the exact same pattern of dysfunction that makes you feel afraid in the first place.

It’s soooooooo sad to me that the world is like this and that intimacy doesn’t exist anymore. It’s scary to think I’m going to have to date again and that social media is going to be where I meet someone.

Because I don’t want fake and I don’t want games. I’m the kind of girl that lives in her heart and in a world full of pretend I don’t know where I’ll fit in.

The depths of my soul go far beyond instant messenger and private Snapchats. A girl with a big heart needs so much more then the stories that are portrayed behind the scenes.

I crave true connection with authentic people that are committed to living a life full of love. Maybe there are more people like me out there, but the majority of the world prefers safe simply because it’s easy. They prefer games because then they won’t ever get hurt. They will always be in control and they will never find real because real comes with pain.

I don’t want a safe life that never warrants real love and real connection. I want a life where people talk on the phone, show up every night for dinner and aren’t afraid to be real.

There are times that I feel so deeply and strongly that I would love to call it a curse and I don’t want to vulnerable. But that’s not who I am and that’s not how God made me. And I’ll be damned if I ever let anyone or anything make me bitter because then I would be playing the game.

I’ll never let the ways of this world change who I am inside.

I won’t ever allow the fear of getting hurt ever stop me from trying to create something real that could heal every single part of my broken, because then I would be just like those who live small, safe lives.

I only have this one single life and I won’t waste it trying to be like the world.

I know that my heart is special and that I wasn’t made to be normal. I also know that you will never be able to love unless you can learn to be real. To not hide your truths behind a mask of hurt and to cause more pain to others because someone hurt me.

I will always learn and I will always grow and there won’t ever be one single experience that I regret because they are all here to teach me a lesson about myself.

I’ve learned to love myself exactly the way I am. I’ve learned how to take down the armor and to to show up time and time again, because speaking my truth and opening my heart is far more important then pretending to be something I’m not.

Being brave means you might get hurt, but I’d rather live a life that come from the heart then a life that comes from the pain.

Faith and fear cannot exist in the same place at the same time. Being authentic means showing all the parts of your heart and those include the ones that hurt you.

I choose love

I choose to use my voice even when it shakes

I choose to speak truth to bullshit

I choose to share my fears instead of hide behind them because love is the only thing that will heal our hearts and this world

I won’t ever stop being me 💜

I won’t ever stop trying and I will never live a life that doesn’t require a challenge on a daily basis

I hope your brave enough to learn how precious and how short your life is and to stop allowing the pain of others to keep you small

💜 Tay Tay

The most loyal heart around


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