If Iโ€™d known then what I know now I still would have done it

Good morning beautiful souls ๐Ÿ’œ

This morning as I write to you my hearts calling all the shots. I’m in a season of change and I’m learning to embrace each day as it comes.

Divorce is a crazy hard thing, but there’s a lot of good that’s coming from it also. Being brave enough to start over and create a New life isn’t an easy thing to do.

As a matter of fact if you remember, I had to get a tattoo of the word brave on my arm so that I could be reminded of it every single day.

Some days are hella hard and some days are amazing, and today I’m feeling the love for myself. My heart is full even in the midst of uncertainty. #hope

If I knew now what I knew then I wouldn’t change a single thing. Look at that beautiful girl that we created. I can’t imagine a life without her in it.

Without our marriage and the love that we once shared I wouldn’t be who I am today.

And if I’m being real honest, if it weren’t for the pain that comes with leaving I wouldn’t be who I am right now either.

You learn so much about yourself in the course of 20 years and most women change as they get older.

The things that were once important don’t seem to matter anymore, because the love you want to give and receive become bigger then the fears of staying the same.

Our daughter has taught me so many things about myself and about love. She’s truly a blessing on so many levels and she’s the perfect combination of her dad and I.

She’s got his brain and she’s got my heart and that my friends is a dynamic duo.

When we go through uncertainties it’s easy to become stuck in the muck, but you don’t have to live there every single day.

Allow whatever your feeling to come and to go because it’s the only way to heal your heart.

Don’t deny the feelings of anger or betrayal because that’s not working through them. Instead allow yourself to be wherever you are for the day.

When I look back over the last 20 years I can focus on the shit that hurt or I can focus on the good, and today I’m choosing the good.

I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but today I have to attend a co-parenting class which seems kind of silly since I’ve been parenting her for 14 years, but none the less I’m down for whatever.

I wouldn’t change a single thing because if I did then I wouldn’t be who I am today.

I couldn’t have learned to love wholeheartedly and use my voice again if it weren’t for this marriage.

I wouldn’t be a blogger or a life coach if it weren’t for this marriage. I wouldn’t have learned about loyalty or perseverance if it weren’t for my marriage.

And while this marriage might have felt broken for the last couple of years, that doesn’t mean that it wasn’t always like that.

Today I choose to be thankful for love and for divorce because it’s made me who I am.

Learning to trust and to love again means being brave enough to get hurt again, but what’s a life without unconditional love?

I hope that if your having a hard time right now that this helps you understand that everything happens for a reason.

May all of your life situations eventually make you better and not bitter.

May you be brave enough to show up every single day without the armor on and to speak your truth always, because passion lies in the midst of vulnerability and baby your worth it.

๐Ÿ’œ Tay Tay

God Bless



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