The most destructive thing I’ve ever done……..

The most destructive thing I’ve ever done is believe someone else’s opinion of me

Teal Blue Jay

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Hits me right in my heart and my soul. It’s crazy how you can work so hard to be healing certain parts of yourself, while truly believing what someone is telling you about yourself.

As I continued to argue and battle for my self worth what I really did was lose more of myself to my own abandonment issues. Continuing to play out my broken little girl as I was trying to heal her.

While certain parts of my heart healed others threatened to keep me small forever.

Why?

Because I’m a human being that’s been afraid forever. But that’s not how I want to live anymore. It’s not honoring my soul, it’s tearing it apart. It’s making me feel incomplete and alone and it’s time to be honest with myself.

Denial can no longer exist here because the healing has begun. The uphill battle will be worth it in the end because it will bring change. The toxicity of the sameness has brought a fog into my life and it’s time to release it.


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