If you want to know if your growing or not, just wait until the next drama in your life occurs. Do you have your normal freak out reaction? Do you feel as though the world is ending and your about to have a mental break down?
Are you one of those people who don’t freak out, but maybe you just shut down? Just check out like, peace ✌️ Friends I can’t deal with this right now! So you run away and avoid dealing with it like the plague!
Or perhaps you use your anger when it comes to avoiding drama. Maybe your tough exterior is enough to keep people at an arms length. So by appearing mean, your able to deter the chaos from entering your circle.
Maybe your the victim to chaos! Maybe you just cry every time something bad happens and you feel as though your helpless. You find yourself unable to stand up and to use your voice. Maybe you even believe that your not supposed to speak up, and be heard. You’ve trained yourself to be quiet at all times, and you believe this is only way to deal.
You see my friends, I have been every single one of those people I mentioned above. It just depends where and what I was doing with my life.
That’s what life’s about
But this is by far the best gift I’ve ever given myself. The gift of loving me, and teaching others to do the same.
When chaos occurred this time, I was able to stay grounded and not lose my focus. I even wondered to myself
“Tavia why aren’t you losing your shit right now?”
“Are you ok?”
You see, even though I had learned a new way to deal, I was still confused by the fact that I wasn’t acting out my old unhealthy patterns.
My emotions used to control me, and here I was faced with adversity and still keeping it together.
Who is this person I’ve been working on for the last few years?
Do I even like her and the way she’s handling things?
Do I like the old me better? Because it’s safer and more familiar?
I had a lot of questions for myself and at the same time I already knew all of the answers.
When I finally took the time to learn about myself, I was able to change for the better. I don’t know why I was so surprised by my new energy, but nevertheless I was!
If you think your stuck with your current self you are completely and totally in the wrong. You can change anything, if your committed.
I spent most of my life avoiding the real me, and now I get to spend the second half of my life showing up, and being seen, and teaching others to do the same.