Good morning friends I bring a beautiful quote to you from my girl Brene’ Brown.
I resemble this statement in so many ways.
Did you know that your broken is actually beautiful?
Did you know that your brokenness is welcome here?
When I learned how to welcome my broken I began to transform my spirit.
I started my life out feeling rejected and abandoned because my father wasn’t around. I carried that around with me and wore the necklace of shame for many years. If I’m being completely honest (which we know I always try to be) then you should know that I wouldn’t even admit for years that not having a Dad had affected my life.
I was in straight up denial about the whole thing. I put up my walls and said nope, no way, not going to bother me, his loss not mine, and then I just didn’t even think about him for a very long time.
Clearly I’m smart enough to understand the absence of a parent in a child’s life. But what I wasn’t willing to do at that time was to understand the absence it had on my own life.
I was always somewhat disconnected from the girl who was vulnerable and needed love, and instead I used to choose the scrappy girl who took no shit and only let a few people get close.
(Disclaimer this girl still lives inside me and she always will💜 I’ve just been able to fine tune her over the years, if you hurt my family or you over step my personal boundaries you will get a chance to meet her)
If you find yourself thinking this might be you too, don’t beat yourself up. That’s not going to do you any good, just recognize that you might be like me and then become aware of what your going to do to acknowledge it.
You can’t heal something that you won’t even admit exists. You can’t understand something your unwilling to examine. You can’t take the walls down if you won’t admit that they are there in the first place.
This in itself is a part of the awakening process. Awakenings occur on the inside. It’s as though we uncover a secret that we’ve been trying to keep from ourselves.
It’s like a revelation that’s been in the back of our mind for sometime now, but we were unable to grasp it completely until we were ready.
I’m 43 years young, and I spent the first 25 years of my life trying to escape my self. Then when I met my husband I knew I was going to have to work on my walls, because that’s why God gave him to me.
Now I get to spend the next 25 years discovering more about my authentic self. I get to to learn new things, and teach people how to love their broken.
Your life might not be what you think it should be, and your probably right. But, it’s a gift and it’s yours and if your willing to embrace the broken, then you will be amazed by the beautiful that awaits you!
Below is a video of me at work if it will load
I wanted you to see me in my natural environment and know what I’m really like
Makes me smile every time