I did have lunch with my mom and sister, which was exactly what my heart needed. I’ve been stuck in overdrive for the last week, with zero downtime.
When things happen in our lives that cause stress and trauma, our brains release different chemicals.
These free radicals are floating all around my body right now, and I’m in the process of trying to decompress. There were times over the last few days that I was completely on auto pilot.
Under sensory attack, and yet somehow still walking around, managing to keep functioning. I wouldn’t call it high functioning, more like batteries need charged.
Dealing with death and families is hard enough in itself. I mean we have a big ass extended family, we don’t hang out with all that often. I think I’ve spent more time with them in the last 3 days than I have in the last 3 years.
That’s a lot of different personalities that come with a big family, and most people are looking outside themselves for the answers. This equals chaos, at a most fragile time.
Some people acted exactly as I thought they would, and some people caught me completely off guard.
So today I knew that I needed a break from it all. I made sure I didn’t make any hair appointments, and I made time to calm my spirit today.
That adrenaline has been rushing through my body for days and I knew that I needed to rest, even if I can’t sleep that well.
I might not be in control of what’s going on around me, but today I took time for myself. I did some yoga for the first time in a week!
Why do we quit doing the very things we need to keep us calm?
I talked to my one of girlfriends on the phone, and I hung out with my other friend at my house. I needed to reset and I’d be lying if I said I was there, but I am better that’s for sure!
You must learn to honor what your soul needs.
You must learn to rest when you are weary, because you can’t pour from an empty cup.
Tomorrow morning I will return to my jazzercise class, and even though it might kick my ass, it will feel good to be surrounded by my friends again!
If you feel like your nearing exhaustion mentally, take a day and love yourself 💜
I’ll let you know how tomorrow goes✌️