This is the 3rd and final blog of a 3 part series! Read the other 2 first or this will make no sense to you. In part 1, I shared the story that I’ve carried around with me my whole life.
In part 2 I shared the new version of my story, and now I’m going to share my why, and my how with you.
Why did I want to change my story?
First of all I was tired of myself. I felt as though I was the victim in my own life. And to be honest, for many years that’s all that I was. But, it was because I didn’t know any better. I didn’t know that I could change the story in my mind. I didn’t know that I could control my thoughts, instead of them controlling me.
It was only when I decided to expand my self knowledge that I was able to learn about consciousness. I was able to open my mind to some new ideas, and some new ways of thinking. I’ve always had a love for reading, and personal development, but I didn’t know it could change my life.
We all have certain themes, or stories that we carry around with us. You might not even be aware of the story you tell yourself. Maybe you’ve been telling it for so long, that you don’t even realize it.
But I woke up one day and I was sick and tired of my story. I was over living with these feelings of being incomplete, and unlovable, and I was tired of carrying around the hurt. I was 42 years old and I felt like I was 13 sometimes.
When do I heal it? When do I let it go? When do I learn from it?
The answer was whenever I was ready.
The power was inside me, I just needed help unlocking it. I needed to deal with my shit, before it dealt with me. I needed to heal myself, so I could be a better Tavia, a better wife, a better mother, a better friend, an authentic leader.
Like most people in the world I spent a lot of time playing the blame game. But, that game just keeps us stuck where we are. It never let’s go of you, it’s your safety net.
The first key to change is becoming aware of your own bullshit. If you don’t realize your own comfort zones, then you will never escape them. So I had to look inside and see what I needed to change.
It’s not always pretty when you decide to do something different. Your ego will do anything and everything to stay strong, and to protect you. But you don’t want to live in your ego. You want to live in your heart, you want things to come from your authentic voice.
Our egos are wounded, and they are jaded. They are not here to make us better, they are here to hold us back. They were created in our childhoods, to keep us safe from the world. The only Problem with that is, that it tricks you into thinking it’s on your side. It makes you believe that it’s right. You’ve become the master of your own ego, and you don’t even know it.
(If you’ve been complaining about the same thing for the last 5 years, but you’ve not done one single thing to change it, then your stuck in your ego)
I wanted more! I wanted better! I wanted to be free! I wanted to be the change in my own life. I wanted to be my own superhero, and I wanted to love myself as much as I loved the people who were important to me.
I realized that I had so much more of myself to give, but I was going to have to heal Something’s before I could do that. And so began the journey of falling in love with myself again. Real self love that is, not the fake sense of self that I had created.
I had enough of giving my power away. I had enough of living in fear. I had enough of my hurts, controlling my future. I wanted to be free form myself, and my past.
A conscious journey is not for everyone. As a matter of fact, there are people who go their entire life and they will never awaken. They will never change, because they don’t want to.
But this story is not for them. My story is for those of you who seek to have a better life. For those of you who wish for more. My story is here to inspire the change that you already desire.
When I took the time to work on myself, I began to learn a new way of thinking. I began to rewrite the theme that was running through my head. If you’ve already read the other 2 parts of this series you will see that in part 2 some of the story is totally omitted.
Does this mean it never happened? No it does not!
But what it does mean is that I’ve decided it no longer serves a purpose in my heart. I’ve come to terms with it, I’ve healed it so it can no longer control me.
I was honest about the pain it caused me. I was vulnerable to myself and my own history. I looked at that little girl, and I decided it was time to love her.
This is key to becoming conscious, you cannot move forward until you deal with your demons. My heart was wounded over the years, and I was the only one who could fix it. I was the only one who carried it around with me. I was the only one who could change it, because it was all mine!
History will repeat itself over, and over, and over again until you learn a lesson from it. I was ready to move on. I was ready to heal, and I was ready to be free of my life long burdens. I was ready to change my story and as you can see I’ve done just that.
Every single week I continue to work on myself. Every day, I make a little time to work on me. You see consciousness is just like anything else, the more you do it the better you become at it.
You have a great and infinite power inside of you. You have the ability to change anything in your story. You are the author of your own life, and you get to decide how your story goes.
But the real question is
Are you willing to put in the work?
Are you worth it?
Are you ready to invest in yourself?
It is with great pleasure that I get to share my new stories with you.
It is with an open heart that I share the power of healing.
It’s not going to be the easiest thing you’ve ever done, but I promise you it will be the most rewarding gift that you ever give yourself.
My dear sweet, broken friends your ending can be different then your beginning. The middle can be changed to suit your current needs, and you can heal yourself whenever your ready!
For more information on how to change your story please feel free to contact me or message me!
Also please share my stories with anyone that you think could benefit from them!
I love you and now I love me as well💜
Wake up before your life is over⭐️
You are destined for so much more💜